Distance Holy Fire® Reiki Session

In April 2022, I hit a wall I couldn’t think my way out of. My husband was deep in building his business, and the emotional and financial volatility of entrepreneurship was hitting our household hard. The pressure to contribute financially became so intense that it… shut me down. I wasn’t just overwhelmed, I was paralyzed. Getting out of bed felt like a stretch. Showing up for my kids took everything I had. What made it more confronting was I had over 25 years of leadership experience behind me - nonprofit leadership, operations, strategy, and consulting. I had built organizations, led teams, influenced policy, and solved complex problems at a high level. I had the honor of testifying before the House Natural Resources Committee - US Congress in Washington DC. I knew how to lead and I knew how to execute and none of that could solve what was happening internally. In desperation, I stepped back. I started applying for jobs, roles far below my experience level just to feel some relief and stability. The idea of going back to a traditional path made me feel physically sick, but so did the uncertainty of staying where I was. That tension forced me to confront something I thought I had already worked through: My identity was still tied to achievement. Around that time, I invested over five figures into a three-month coaching program, convinced it would give me the clarity I couldn’t access on my own. It didn’t. The program lacked depth, structure, and real leadership. The guidance was inconsistent, and the work contradicted itself. And I could see it clearly because I understand how transformation actually works. That experience forced me to get honest. I had been outsourcing my authority and looking for someone else to give me the answers, hoping there was a faster way. There isn’t a faster way. I know this and yet I couldn't sit with this level of discomfort. I had to face my own patterns of scarcity thinking, fear-based decision making, impatience, and the belief that once I reached a certain level, I would finally feel better. Reiki had already been part of my life before this. I spent years practicing Reiki and then pursued my Reiki Master Certification believing that was the destination. But this season showed me something different. Reiki isn't the end - it is the doorway. As I moved through my own unraveling, Reiki became something I lived, not just something I practiced on others in my energy healing practice. Reiki supported (and continues to support) me in the quiet moments where there was nothing to fix, only something to understand. That’s when everything started to shift.